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When we have a disease treatments help and support us in calming the symptoms but what I am interested in is understanding the origins of the disease. I do believe that going into the roots of the disease and treating what causes it is much more effective than treating the extensions or symptoms of it. This blog is about a technique that I have found myself about how to get to the roots. Many ideas and explanations can be given by others about what a disease could mean but, actually, who better than us could know what’s happening inside us? I share this hoping that you would try it and let me know if it worked. It helps me a lot and I would be very grateful if this could help others too.
I believe the body is a messenger. Deep messages manifests through our body. The question is, how fluent we are in the language that the body uses to speak to us? How much do we understand that language? How much do we actually listen to this messenger?
I personally haven’t been listening to my body talking to me for many many years, and here I am now, having to learn a new language, the language I was born with but have lost because I haven’t practiced it. The language of my Self talking to me through my body. Yes, I strongly believe that our Self talks to us through our body. Anything that happens in our body is a word, a sentence, a story, a sign. A meaning is hidden behind any physical manifestation.
I want to learn that language now for different reasons but the most important one is that I believe in the healing power that we hold in ourselves, in our body, mind and soul, and I believe that nobody better than us knows what we need and what to do.
In all my life I have had “small” little things going on in my body that I have never deeply analyzed. Eczema is an old time companion, since I was 5 years old. Bowel issue is another one, since teenager. Reproductive system issues another good friend, since my first cycle. Yes, small little things, nothing major that could have stopped me to keep on going, no major disabilities. Everybody has something, right? Well, with that mentality I ended up having issues in conceiving, suffering of IBD, and having strong eczema rushes that forced me to stay in bed without being able to move my face and hands without opening a wound in my skin.
I have seen many doctors, gynaecologists, dermatologists, gastroenterologists, and they have all given me emergency treatments that in some way helped but never cured fully. Some time after the end of those treatments the symptoms were coming back again. I have then started to be more interested in holistic medicines, homeopathy, aromatherapy, naturopathy, nutrition and so on, and they have all taught and supported me a lot. Much softer approach, longer treatments but much longer effects. In all cases the symptoms, even if lighter than before, they have all come back again. There was still something missing, something that was not allowing me to heal fully. What was it? Many years in trying to understand until I fully realized what that thing was. It was me.
One morning I woke up and had the impulse to try the following technique out. I went into the symptoms and tried to understand them. This gave me a deeper understanding of what I was going through and I am now following what that technique taught me with much success.
Here is what I did:
1. I took 3 blank pages and a pen. I first started writing whatever came up to my mind on the spot. Nobody was ever going to read what I was writing down so I allowed myself to write anything down with the intention of emptying my mind of all superficial things. At one point the moment naturally came and I felt I had nothing more to write down about superficial things: my mind calmed down and I was now more in contact with my inner self.
2. I chose one disease I wanted to work on, eczema.
3. I wrote down on those pages anything that came up to my mind defining the symptoms of my eczema. Where it manifests, how it manifests. Anything linked to the merely physical and sensational aspects of it, like skin, hands, wrists, dry, itching... I kept on writing until I felt that was it.
4. I then went into writing down what those physical symptoms represented to me, for example the fact that it manifests on the skin made me think that it was linked to something happening in the external world that was directly in contact with me. The itching made me think about something irritating, something I wanted to get rid of. And so on until I felt I had no more else coming up to my mind.
5. I then put the two things together and followed my intuition toward the things that more resonated in me and asked myself the question: what is it in my life now that could create that in me? I kept on writing and had good answers to that question, and I also had none. (That’s OK. I still had the answer few days after!). I kept on writing until at least the 3 pages were filled up.
I still use this technique, with or without pen and paper, and the benefits are many. I now understand the language of my body, I know what it’s telling me when a certain physical sensation or manifestation appears. I know what I need to do to improve my life. I have realized that my eczema appears when I’m doing something or dealing with someone that I don’t like. It reminds me that I am doing something that I can’t support and should change the situation. The next step has then be to bring a change, sometimes saying no, or doing less, or finding a better way to decompress. And you know what, my symptoms have calmed down. Sure, it takes time, it’s not a 1 day fix, but it works on me. First it’s understanding what it is, then finding a solution and then acting. Once all these three are done then the symptoms start to calm down, at least on me.
I am learning a new language and a new world is opening up.
If you are experiencing any physical issue that you struggle in healing, I would love to hear from you. I would be honoured if you tried this out and let me know your experience. It is helping me a lot and it would be great if this could help others too. Simply allow yourself to be in the disease, and open up to the messages that it’s trying to give you. Remember, it’s what you think not what others think. Do it by yourself, nobody else than you could know. We are all different and we all perceive things differently. Trust yourself, you know. Please note that this is an experiment and it’s not a substitute of treatments.
May all beings be healthy.
I start my blog today. It’s a new adventure that I have been dreaming of for a long time. For a long time my inner self has shouted out loud that it wanted me to take pen and paper and use my hands as channels. I was not listening to these requests, I thought I was not good enough to do this, I thought I was not a literate to do so, I thought there are writers outside there who have studied all their lives to do that…I certainly could not do it, how disrespectful of me to think I could!
Myriad of things I have not done or done because of others
Writing is just one of myriad of other things that I have not done or done because of others. Others have always been my first starting point. “Shall I go out with my girlfriends tonight? I’d love to, but that would mean leaving my husband at home on his own…do I really want to be so selfish?” or “I’m very tired today and I’d love to take a bath and go to bed, but I can’t say no to my friend” Conversations like these ones have stopped me doing many things in life or have forced me to do things that I did not want to, and I now realize how I have blocked myself from fully enjoying all opportunities of life and how I have been violent towards me.
Would I be happy to know that my husband is stopping himself by enjoying life because he does not want to leave me alone? Would I be pleased to know that my friend is not taking care of herself because she doesn’t feel she can say no to me? No, I would not. Sure, I’m grateful that they could think about me but what I’m looking for is for them to be happy and free to be themselves!
The shift happened on my yoga mat
The shift for me happened on my yoga mat, but it can happen in many different ways. My yoga practice at that time was more for others than for myself. I had to reach the full pose for the teacher, my husband and friends to be proud of me. One day I realized that I was not doing myself any good and I was not listening to my body warning me that I was going to injure myself. My knees were not happy and I was often having post-classes pain. I naturally put more attention to what yoga teachers say about the fact that yoga is not about the full pose and started stepping back a little bit. My practice became softer, more loving, more peaceful and guess what, my body was so much happier! The process of giving love to myself by listening to what I really wanted started there.
I think of myself before others
Now I think of myself before others. People may think this is selfish, but I see this as nurturing my being so as to be fully there when others need me. I treat myself like I’d love others to treat themselves. I am the most important person I know in life, and without myself I cannot live. If I am not good, loved ones will not either as I will give them suffering. Selfish is not loving myself. Selfish is not being able to say no and therefore lying to others. Selfish is hurting myself without thinking how this could impact others.
My life has beautifully improved since I started giving more love to myself than to others. My relationships have flourished, I’ve met beautiful new friends, I do what I want in life, I am more balanced and a world of infinite possibilities is opening up in front of me.
We live this life only once. This is not a rehearsal. Love yourself and others will love you.
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Be in joy!
Hi I'm Silvia. I believe life is much deeper than what we see on the surface and therefore dig deeper and deeper everyday. This is my way of showing gratitude for having been given the gift of life and creation. I write about what I have experienced myself, inspired by the wonders of the universe, my yoga students' and my own inner inquiries.